long time no visit no way

i havent posted on this blog in nearly an entire year. its fucking crazy to think about how much has changed in my life since i have started this blog. i started it heartbroken, alone, drunk, tired, and insane...ive grown alot since then and havent let the bad things get me down as much as they used to. i still get irritated easily, am very cynical, and have alot to bitch about...

i want to start this post with an update on what has happened to me in the past year...

i moved back to NC in december. it took me a while to get adjusted and be happy. i was laid off from barnes & noble and am now a waiter in a popular downtown restaurant. i am in a wonderful relationship with my gf kristen and we love each other very much. i live in a house with 4 other guys. 3 of whom i work with and 1 who is never home. the living situation could be better, its not that i dont like my roommates...there all great people. its just theres too much bickering and passive agressive shit in this house. it absolutely drives me insane. it causes me to stay in my room alot and not congregate as much. like i said, i love them all...its just difficult to live with 4 very different people and expect everything to work out smoothly. our lease is up in december though and me and kristen are going to move in together in a small 1 bedroom somewhere downtown, im really looking forward to it. i feel like ill be in constant peace there, just me and her and hopefully a little cat. i want to make it a home. i feel like i havent ever had a home. moving alot does that to you, you become numb of everything around you and nothing seems to become comfartable. the human being is a tricky little fucking thing...im gonna get ready for work and hopefully post more. i enjoyed this.