guess who hates life again.... you guessed that correctly!!! ME! so me and my gf have been going through some tough times lately... and the other day she bailed on me and said she was leaving me because she needed to be alone to be happy and left me crying and alone in our appartment... the next day she called me and said she loves me and figured out all is ok and she needs to find happiness within herself so she came back and i allowed her because i love her and shes amazing.... today at work i text her because she hadnt talked to me all day..... i asked what are you up to and she replies.... " i need to be alone tonight, im freaking out, im sorry" .... i come home and shes gone.... so now..... i sit here... contemplating what to do next... i love her and want to be with her but i cant endure this any longer... you either know or you dont.... soo.... it is 11:26 and i work at 10.... to calm myself i am now slamming budweisers as fast as i can because sadly i am a weak little boy and that is how i deal with my problems... so basically if you read this blog before... i am back to square one... and i guess... sadly you can welcome me back to this cynical fucking depressed angry way i can be.... im not proud to be back to be honest... i am losing the one i love... but this is the only way i know how to deal.... drink....spill feelings... and listen to ryan adams.

fuck my fucking life