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peace love.
M ikey
Thursday, October 30, 2008
is my house haunted or am i going insane
I had trouble falling asleep last night. I tossed and turned until I finally seemed to slip into a dream. I woke up to a bang which sounded like it came from the kitchen. i still dont know what it was.
I got up to investigate. Machette in hand (they don't call it murderappolis for nothin) nothing strange going on in the kitchen. So I'm going back to my bed and in the other room a figure like thing passed by the corner of my eye. it freaked me out so bad, i yelled out BLACH and ran into my room and slammed the door. more restless sleep cause that was some scary shit.
Long story short...don't watch the others before you go to bed. You won't sleep and a tshirt on a hanger will scare the shit out of you. i felt like an idiot.
another thing on the topic of scary stuff... i have this irrational fear of witches. like not real witches like wiccan people but like movie witches. tall skinny long black hair green face long chin big nose and warts. just scares the crap out of me, i figure its because when i was a kid my mom would come into my room while i was playing with my toys and would cackle like a witch to scare me. when i would cry and be like mom dont please shed say in a demonic voice "im not your mother". i asked her why she did that last time i saw her and she said i would give her the sweetest hugs when she went back to not being a witch...thats fucking crazy. what a weird way to get hugs, she could of just been nice instead of traumatizing me. like i said not all witches like a fat girl in a skanky witch costume on halloween aint gonna scare me. there was a scary one in the lobby the other day. i ran away...very unprofessional
I got up to investigate. Machette in hand (they don't call it murderappolis for nothin) nothing strange going on in the kitchen. So I'm going back to my bed and in the other room a figure like thing passed by the corner of my eye. it freaked me out so bad, i yelled out BLACH and ran into my room and slammed the door. more restless sleep cause that was some scary shit.
Long story short...don't watch the others before you go to bed. You won't sleep and a tshirt on a hanger will scare the shit out of you. i felt like an idiot.
another thing on the topic of scary stuff... i have this irrational fear of witches. like not real witches like wiccan people but like movie witches. tall skinny long black hair green face long chin big nose and warts. just scares the crap out of me, i figure its because when i was a kid my mom would come into my room while i was playing with my toys and would cackle like a witch to scare me. when i would cry and be like mom dont please shed say in a demonic voice "im not your mother". i asked her why she did that last time i saw her and she said i would give her the sweetest hugs when she went back to not being a witch...thats fucking crazy. what a weird way to get hugs, she could of just been nice instead of traumatizing me. like i said not all witches like a fat girl in a skanky witch costume on halloween aint gonna scare me. there was a scary one in the lobby the other day. i ran away...very unprofessional
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Todays post...dont forget yesterdays right under this one... 2 posts in one visit.....SWEET! thats what your thinking
The title for this was originally Mother...
i cant wait for my mom to get here. 2 more days, i feel myself going insane not having anyone to talk to. all i have is a pen and notebook, or a blog to convey my feelings. i cant wait to have an actual face to face conversation with someone caring and understanding, someone who knows i belong in Carolina and will help me get there. i just need to get there, i wanna go home.
im tired of wasting time. my life has become this sort of cliche routine seen in movies right before something monumentous happens and their life is changed forever. this is my routine in a nutshell for ya, hell...ill put it in bullet form to further show how redundant and horrible it is.
-wake up at 630 am...shower/shave/brush teeth
-watch saved by the bell for 15 minutes
-walk to the train, always crammed...never get a seat
-get to work, work till 12:30 then lunch till 1:30
-lunch= gross cafetria food for 30 min, then i go to target and look at dvd's im not going to buy
-1:30...back to work :(
-get off at 5pm takes 45 minutes -1 hour to get home
-get home...sit on laptop, drink, crash before 11pm
-wake up at 630 am...shower/shave/brush teeth
and so on and so on and so on.....theres my weekly schedule....weekends pretty much consist of the same activities. besides the working......gee mikey....why do you hate minneapolis so much,,,why you so depressed in MN....it cant be that bad can it....your soo emo chin up...you have a good job....yeah fuck that see above!
Shabsoviet...Out!
i cant wait for my mom to get here. 2 more days, i feel myself going insane not having anyone to talk to. all i have is a pen and notebook, or a blog to convey my feelings. i cant wait to have an actual face to face conversation with someone caring and understanding, someone who knows i belong in Carolina and will help me get there. i just need to get there, i wanna go home.
im tired of wasting time. my life has become this sort of cliche routine seen in movies right before something monumentous happens and their life is changed forever. this is my routine in a nutshell for ya, hell...ill put it in bullet form to further show how redundant and horrible it is.
-wake up at 630 am...shower/shave/brush teeth
-watch saved by the bell for 15 minutes
-walk to the train, always crammed...never get a seat
-get to work, work till 12:30 then lunch till 1:30
-lunch= gross cafetria food for 30 min, then i go to target and look at dvd's im not going to buy
-1:30...back to work :(
-get off at 5pm takes 45 minutes -1 hour to get home
-get home...sit on laptop, drink, crash before 11pm
-wake up at 630 am...shower/shave/brush teeth
and so on and so on and so on.....theres my weekly schedule....weekends pretty much consist of the same activities. besides the working......gee mikey....why do you hate minneapolis so much,,,why you so depressed in MN....it cant be that bad can it....your soo emo chin up...you have a good job....yeah fuck that see above!
Shabsoviet...Out!
yesterdays post
ive been craigslisting/monster.com like a mad man, its very stressful. i feel like im applying for bullshit and its all phishing schemes. i found out today too since i havent worked at BN for a while that im not eligible to transfer DAMN! that was like my job cushion, and has been for the last 3 years. im sure it will work out in the end, i mean it has to right? i just love working at BN, cool people always work there. always a interesting group of people.
my mom gets here on friday, i can barely wait. i have all this shit flying around in my head. its driving me mad, i cant wait to just sit down with her and regurgitate it all to her face to face rather than over the email. im sure shes dreading it. then on saturday my sister gets here, i cant freaking wait to see her. its been the longest since we have last seen each other.
i wish things were easier. like moving and shit, it takes so much out of you, mentally and physically. i just want to sleep its all so exhausting. i really want to write some new shorts but i cant focus for shite. all the stress and depression minneapolis puts on me blocks my brain of all creativity and freetime/amusement if that makes any sense? where will i be when im 64? scary thought! see...there i go again overthinking. i should just stop and eliminate that though cause nothing good will come of it. oh and also marriot said i wasnt qualified for an Admin position...i got promoted out of that fucking position, stupid personality test fucked me in the ass again! hate those things.
my mom gets here on friday, i can barely wait. i have all this shit flying around in my head. its driving me mad, i cant wait to just sit down with her and regurgitate it all to her face to face rather than over the email. im sure shes dreading it. then on saturday my sister gets here, i cant freaking wait to see her. its been the longest since we have last seen each other.
i wish things were easier. like moving and shit, it takes so much out of you, mentally and physically. i just want to sleep its all so exhausting. i really want to write some new shorts but i cant focus for shite. all the stress and depression minneapolis puts on me blocks my brain of all creativity and freetime/amusement if that makes any sense? where will i be when im 64? scary thought! see...there i go again overthinking. i should just stop and eliminate that though cause nothing good will come of it. oh and also marriot said i wasnt qualified for an Admin position...i got promoted out of that fucking position, stupid personality test fucked me in the ass again! hate those things.
Sunday, October 26, 2008
quick update
I'm at the chicago airport waiting for the plane to load. Just wanted a quick update on here. There will be a more formal post later on when I'm on my laptop rather than my phone.
Just wanted to spill my guts realquick. I'm hurtin, hurtin bad. I haven't cried this much since I got my heart broken. I fell in love with winston. I forgot how much I love north carolina. Real people. The thought of returning to minneapolis has left me gutted and teary eyed which will result in a headach later on. All I can be is right here in my hands and I'm gonna make something of it.
Time to get it together now. I'm making a deadline. I'm setting goals and tasks and I'm gonna do it all. Until then...whiny posts and craigslist. See you soon winston. I know in my heart and mind it won't be long.
Just wanted to spill my guts realquick. I'm hurtin, hurtin bad. I haven't cried this much since I got my heart broken. I fell in love with winston. I forgot how much I love north carolina. Real people. The thought of returning to minneapolis has left me gutted and teary eyed which will result in a headach later on. All I can be is right here in my hands and I'm gonna make something of it.
Time to get it together now. I'm making a deadline. I'm setting goals and tasks and I'm gonna do it all. Until then...whiny posts and craigslist. See you soon winston. I know in my heart and mind it won't be long.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Trying To Focus
I'm going to try and focus and publish a decent post here. this past week i have been doing nothing but partying and my life has become a haze, ive found it hard to think of something to write. Basically i have came to the assumption this past week during my short amount of time here in winston-salem what its all about. Life is not about having a great job with lots of money, having a gorgeous wife with great kids. sounds boring to me to be honest. how does that sound any fun to me. sounds so pre programmed why do i feel the need to go down said path. because thats what i was taught in a corrupt school system established on what a board thinks is appropriate to screw in young kids heads.
you dont need money and love to be happy. there good things i guess. but theres more to it out there than those things, this past few months those are the things i have been stressing about. havent given it two thoughts since i have been out here. no its not because im on vacation and im wearing a whats me worries tshirt. its because im reminded of what its all about. friends and family are what its all about. i can go through my entire life re analyzing my decisions and stressing about the what if's but the time has come to pull my socks up and do what i have been recalculating in my head over and over. tired of staying awake thinking what if this happens, only one way to find out.
ok so im focused, we have established that by now. now to stop rambling. does anyone still read this im not getting feedback i feel like im writing in my journal that no one but me reads. i know the past few posts were fucking shite, im working on fixing that. everything that has happened to me since i have been here has been a total you had to be there story or moment. just imagine the funniest drinking stories you can think of, and stretch it out over the course of a week and thats what has been going on with me. hah ironic its like now that i have interesting things happening i dont know what to write about, how queer.
Today me and Caleb went to the salvation army and i did get some good finds. i got some cherrywood leather shoes and 2 new member only jackets. ones tan and looks and fits great on me, its a makin me happpiii. man im a idiot, last night we were at finnigans its an irish pub dwntwn winston. it was there 2 year anniversary of being in business and they were having this party. it was awesome, live dj and they were giving out shit. i got this sweet ass guiness pint. we all did me chad and caleb. we got so trashed, 3 white guys drunk as shit requestin dr dre and singing it at the top of our lungs. we were drunk and freezing so the best mode of transpo was running your ass off. caleb dropped his pint glass and it smashed, then me and chad were like YEAHH WOOO and smashed our. woke up upset about that this morning, although it is so fun to smash glas when your off your face drunk.
alrighty then, off to the blackhole of craigslist. later everyone.
you dont need money and love to be happy. there good things i guess. but theres more to it out there than those things, this past few months those are the things i have been stressing about. havent given it two thoughts since i have been out here. no its not because im on vacation and im wearing a whats me worries tshirt. its because im reminded of what its all about. friends and family are what its all about. i can go through my entire life re analyzing my decisions and stressing about the what if's but the time has come to pull my socks up and do what i have been recalculating in my head over and over. tired of staying awake thinking what if this happens, only one way to find out.
ok so im focused, we have established that by now. now to stop rambling. does anyone still read this im not getting feedback i feel like im writing in my journal that no one but me reads. i know the past few posts were fucking shite, im working on fixing that. everything that has happened to me since i have been here has been a total you had to be there story or moment. just imagine the funniest drinking stories you can think of, and stretch it out over the course of a week and thats what has been going on with me. hah ironic its like now that i have interesting things happening i dont know what to write about, how queer.
Today me and Caleb went to the salvation army and i did get some good finds. i got some cherrywood leather shoes and 2 new member only jackets. ones tan and looks and fits great on me, its a makin me happpiii. man im a idiot, last night we were at finnigans its an irish pub dwntwn winston. it was there 2 year anniversary of being in business and they were having this party. it was awesome, live dj and they were giving out shit. i got this sweet ass guiness pint. we all did me chad and caleb. we got so trashed, 3 white guys drunk as shit requestin dr dre and singing it at the top of our lungs. we were drunk and freezing so the best mode of transpo was running your ass off. caleb dropped his pint glass and it smashed, then me and chad were like YEAHH WOOO and smashed our. woke up upset about that this morning, although it is so fun to smash glas when your off your face drunk.
alrighty then, off to the blackhole of craigslist. later everyone.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
man you had to be there to find this funny
Winston is probably the funnest place. I urge you all to move here. Ill buy you a beer. The thought of going back to shittyapolis is the fucking worst thing I can think of doing to my self. I hate it. Love it here hate it there. Slave on a calculator in the freezing cold with no bbq in my belly.
Last night was fun. Me caleb stephn and chad all went out bar hoppin in winston. we were near this one venue called the gàrage. We wanted to see who played but it was just a private party. This dude was like hey man you want some free food and we were like I guess so he ran in and got us a bucket of bbq. We brought it to this bar down the street and like ten minutes later this lady came in and was like ok who stole this. We clearly didn't but she refused to listen it was awkward. Like we go around and steal food from venues so stupid.
We then went to mellow mushroom where I had the most amazing thing ever. Its called firefly. Its sweet tea flavored vodka. Its amazing we got drunk and knockef over news boxes and garbage and I stole john mccain signs and threw em in the street. It was awesome
Last night was fun. Me caleb stephn and chad all went out bar hoppin in winston. we were near this one venue called the gàrage. We wanted to see who played but it was just a private party. This dude was like hey man you want some free food and we were like I guess so he ran in and got us a bucket of bbq. We brought it to this bar down the street and like ten minutes later this lady came in and was like ok who stole this. We clearly didn't but she refused to listen it was awkward. Like we go around and steal food from venues so stupid.
We then went to mellow mushroom where I had the most amazing thing ever. Its called firefly. Its sweet tea flavored vodka. Its amazing we got drunk and knockef over news boxes and garbage and I stole john mccain signs and threw em in the street. It was awesome
Monday, October 20, 2008
Life
hi...wow i havent posted in forever. well really its only been like 4 days, ok so anyways its about 13o am in fuquay nc. stevens beside me on the floor face down next to a bottle of whiskey. aubrey and caleb are in the other room sleeping and im awake drinking very warm pbr and watching my new babyshambles dvd that i bought at schoolkids today for only 25 bucks. what a steal.
the past few days have been truely amazing. i landed in charlotte friday. we went back to calebs and drank and chilled. we then went to jasons house for a small get together. me and caleb got a lil drunk and sang that day-o song at the top of our lungs in the courtyard outside the appartment, it was good times until in the morning i found out the people whose house we were at got mad we were loud and broke up the next morning, yeah totally terrible i feel like a totes dick/homewrecker.
the next night we went camping it was fun, fun as shit. we got good and drunk. me aubrey and steffan stumbled upon some russian dudes. they fed us cold vodka and potato stew so it was pretty amazing, woke up hit up ihop for some hashbrowns and black coffee. good night overall in my book.
last night aubrey and paula and emily dropped me and caleb off at jackpot in raleigh and we had a few beers with sarah and marissa it was fun. i forgot how fucking shitty messy jackpot was. that has to be the grimmiest bar. when i left raleigh 2 years ago there was a huge hole in the door. went there last night....the hole was not only still there...it got bigger.
today was aubreys bday dinner. it was amazing we wate ribs and had all kinds of goodies it was pretty fun. lauras gparents were here for it which was kind of lame. dont get me wrong it was great to see em but they just kept asking about laura and i and how im doing now and ugh just dont even want to go there you know. no thanks. still was a great night
right now it looks like ill be awake drinking beers by myself since everyone passed out and im awake with like 5 beers a new dvd and internet connection. yeah im gettin no sleep for sure. man stevens snoring like a mutha trucka mang. well i should get off....i got some good ideas for this blog in the future, expect a pleasant turn around. alright well...i love you.
the past few days have been truely amazing. i landed in charlotte friday. we went back to calebs and drank and chilled. we then went to jasons house for a small get together. me and caleb got a lil drunk and sang that day-o song at the top of our lungs in the courtyard outside the appartment, it was good times until in the morning i found out the people whose house we were at got mad we were loud and broke up the next morning, yeah totally terrible i feel like a totes dick/homewrecker.
the next night we went camping it was fun, fun as shit. we got good and drunk. me aubrey and steffan stumbled upon some russian dudes. they fed us cold vodka and potato stew so it was pretty amazing, woke up hit up ihop for some hashbrowns and black coffee. good night overall in my book.
last night aubrey and paula and emily dropped me and caleb off at jackpot in raleigh and we had a few beers with sarah and marissa it was fun. i forgot how fucking shitty messy jackpot was. that has to be the grimmiest bar. when i left raleigh 2 years ago there was a huge hole in the door. went there last night....the hole was not only still there...it got bigger.
today was aubreys bday dinner. it was amazing we wate ribs and had all kinds of goodies it was pretty fun. lauras gparents were here for it which was kind of lame. dont get me wrong it was great to see em but they just kept asking about laura and i and how im doing now and ugh just dont even want to go there you know. no thanks. still was a great night
right now it looks like ill be awake drinking beers by myself since everyone passed out and im awake with like 5 beers a new dvd and internet connection. yeah im gettin no sleep for sure. man stevens snoring like a mutha trucka mang. well i should get off....i got some good ideas for this blog in the future, expect a pleasant turn around. alright well...i love you.
Friday, October 17, 2008
4 the mare
i thought my flight was at 9...its at 11...so im now sitting here waiting for time to go by so i can leave for the airport. i cant wait to get back in north carolina, dirty dirty. i know tonight ill be eating bbq, sweet tea and hush puppies so im already knowing its going to be amazing. tomorrow night camping with a keg, oh god. so basically my whole visit will be a haze is what im gathering out of this.
i cant wait to get out of shittyappolis, feels like ive been here forever. this one routine in one are forever, like clockwork. wake up, shave, brush teeth, put clothes on, train to work, slave, get off, drink, eat, watch a movie, sleep, wake up, shave, brush teeth...just on and on. this past week as been rather interesting and not very routine. its been too good. it might make me slightly miss mpls when im in NC. well have to wait and see. all i know is the new Ryan Adams cd is AMAZING.
packing, i fucking hate packing. really all i need is my laptop, blackberry, ipod, cigs, alice in wonderland, and my wallet. hate packing a toothbrush and razor. why cant that just be supplied to me wherever i go rather than having to tug this stuff around. why cant i be bruce willis and not have to pack. this last paragraph has totes sucked. uh so stupid i cant write anymore. how can i write when i think about you.
we all have life goals and fantasies. mine is the most unbelievable andd far fetched but im going to write about it anyhow. i want to save up alot of money and move to england. i want to learn the art of pickpocketing and live on the streets and travel across europe and just steal from peoples pockets to keep me alive. when im done and ready ill move in with my mom and restore my financial situation. during that time ill write a book about how i lived off the contents of peoples pockets. i think it would be awesome. if only fear and doubt didnt exist, i would be pickpocketing right now instead of updating a blog in minneapolis
i cant wait to get out of shittyappolis, feels like ive been here forever. this one routine in one are forever, like clockwork. wake up, shave, brush teeth, put clothes on, train to work, slave, get off, drink, eat, watch a movie, sleep, wake up, shave, brush teeth...just on and on. this past week as been rather interesting and not very routine. its been too good. it might make me slightly miss mpls when im in NC. well have to wait and see. all i know is the new Ryan Adams cd is AMAZING.
packing, i fucking hate packing. really all i need is my laptop, blackberry, ipod, cigs, alice in wonderland, and my wallet. hate packing a toothbrush and razor. why cant that just be supplied to me wherever i go rather than having to tug this stuff around. why cant i be bruce willis and not have to pack. this last paragraph has totes sucked. uh so stupid i cant write anymore. how can i write when i think about you.
we all have life goals and fantasies. mine is the most unbelievable andd far fetched but im going to write about it anyhow. i want to save up alot of money and move to england. i want to learn the art of pickpocketing and live on the streets and travel across europe and just steal from peoples pockets to keep me alive. when im done and ready ill move in with my mom and restore my financial situation. during that time ill write a book about how i lived off the contents of peoples pockets. i think it would be awesome. if only fear and doubt didnt exist, i would be pickpocketing right now instead of updating a blog in minneapolis
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
Chewsdaii
in exactly...3 days and some amount of hours i will be eating bbq, hush puppies and sweet tea. how excited does that make me, big time excited. today was awesome, i biked to work this morning and it was 39 degrees...the only thing i could think of is A. i need gloves, and B. i need a scarf..it was pretty dang cold. i dont really know what to write about...theres sooooo much that i want to write about...but i told myself when i created this blog that i wouldnt write about my encounters with the femalien race...i kind of want to, im resiting temptation...its a good thing im a strong man. the worst thing about having a blog that everyone you know reads is the fact that you cant talk about those kinds of things not that i care anyone knows, i just like an element of mystery...you can know about my hate for metro transit but not my love life.
i need new jeans ( new subject) ...i ordered some like 5 weeks ago from the internet and one pair came in all busted. so im left with A pair of brown jeans which makes it hard to alternate between the 3 shirts i own that look good with brown jeans. my other jeans have a big hole in the bumb from biking which makes it a lil awkward to wear out since my legs are like wookie harry, no one needs to see that. its just not nice.
lets see...what else i got going on up in my brain...i guess nothing really except that i should get to bed because i work in the morning and have oodles of laundry to do when i get home. omg i hate packing, already dreading it... well im off....im gonna leave you with this....
i need new jeans ( new subject) ...i ordered some like 5 weeks ago from the internet and one pair came in all busted. so im left with A pair of brown jeans which makes it hard to alternate between the 3 shirts i own that look good with brown jeans. my other jeans have a big hole in the bumb from biking which makes it a lil awkward to wear out since my legs are like wookie harry, no one needs to see that. its just not nice.
lets see...what else i got going on up in my brain...i guess nothing really except that i should get to bed because i work in the morning and have oodles of laundry to do when i get home. omg i hate packing, already dreading it... well im off....im gonna leave you with this....
Sunday, October 12, 2008
whats that bible quote something thy neighbor?
i dont know exactly what it is cause i dont really know the bible but if its like be friends with your neighbor i totally agree, good call bible. about 3 months ago a huge storm came through and knocked my neighbors tree into my yard it was funny. i didnt care cause i rented but coming home from the bar at like 3 am to your neighbor youve never met like woah dude my trees in your yard wtf, wanna beer? so yeah cool dude.
last night me and him through this party. it was awesome. i bascially invited my friends and he invited his and we all gathered around the fire listening to girl talk and getting totally trashed off pbr and chainsmoking. it was a fun night, got to party with my peoples from barnes which i hardly see since starting my office job so it was good. just good times. first party ive been too where there hasnt been any puking, fighting, machoism, haters, and breaking/stealing of things. so all in all it went swimingly. oh and shout out to erez for completing his nightly mission woop woop!
whatd i do friday,,,oh yeah thats right...nothing! after work i came home and was gonna go to the bar so i was doing my few beer pregame so i can spend less at the bar. but of course i got stuck into the black hole which is youtube. youtube and beers is amazing. i cant even get into how its ruined me socially in so many ways. how many times i ditched because i got lost in the world of youtube.
5 more days till raleigh nc. 19 more days till my sister visits. 19 days till kings of leon at the orpheum, 23 days till girl talk/the death set at first ave, and about a month and half till ryan adams/oasis at the target center. pretty busy schedule. i need halloween plans. if someones planless let me know, well kick it so badass
last night me and him through this party. it was awesome. i bascially invited my friends and he invited his and we all gathered around the fire listening to girl talk and getting totally trashed off pbr and chainsmoking. it was a fun night, got to party with my peoples from barnes which i hardly see since starting my office job so it was good. just good times. first party ive been too where there hasnt been any puking, fighting, machoism, haters, and breaking/stealing of things. so all in all it went swimingly. oh and shout out to erez for completing his nightly mission woop woop!
whatd i do friday,,,oh yeah thats right...nothing! after work i came home and was gonna go to the bar so i was doing my few beer pregame so i can spend less at the bar. but of course i got stuck into the black hole which is youtube. youtube and beers is amazing. i cant even get into how its ruined me socially in so many ways. how many times i ditched because i got lost in the world of youtube.
5 more days till raleigh nc. 19 more days till my sister visits. 19 days till kings of leon at the orpheum, 23 days till girl talk/the death set at first ave, and about a month and half till ryan adams/oasis at the target center. pretty busy schedule. i need halloween plans. if someones planless let me know, well kick it so badass
Friday, October 10, 2008
friday morning
im soo tired. i woke up a few times last night. i still cant sleep. its been almost 4 months since its all happened and i still cant sleep. when i do i dream about how it all fell apart. i had another one last night. a "we can work it out" dream, woke up full of wtf. i need coma sleeps, some way to sleep without dreaming. and a way to stay asleep, im tired of being tired.
one fucking week!!!! until i get out of the shitty midwest and back to the beautiful dirty south. im so dang pumped to see my friends and me ma and to be able to smoke in a bar and go to bojangles for a 4 piece supreme with sweet tea. mmh mmm tasty town. one week till im hanging from the ceilings, seedy debauchery lies ahead. cant wait! steven you better have my albion ship tattoo designed.
4 days after i get back from nc...my sister is coming to stay with me from canada. havent seen her in forever. its kind of hard to see your family when your thousands of miles apart with no money. should be a blast. were gonna get some tattoos, go see girl talk w/ the death set at first ave, have to take her to the mall of america...so ill slice my throat ear to ear while im there. god the mall is terrible, take a mall and cluster fuck 7 others together and you have the mall of america. a huuuuge mall with the same stores 20 times. i dont get it. put some variety, you dont need 4 old navy's in one mall.
off to fucking work. since the whole incident ive been working my ass off. its contributing to my exhaustion. economy sucks so we eliminated a position and im basically doing 2 jobs and getting paid for one. its pretty tiring, word on the street is our boss is buying us lunch today....so i guess ill go in. later donkeys.
one fucking week!!!! until i get out of the shitty midwest and back to the beautiful dirty south. im so dang pumped to see my friends and me ma and to be able to smoke in a bar and go to bojangles for a 4 piece supreme with sweet tea. mmh mmm tasty town. one week till im hanging from the ceilings, seedy debauchery lies ahead. cant wait! steven you better have my albion ship tattoo designed.
4 days after i get back from nc...my sister is coming to stay with me from canada. havent seen her in forever. its kind of hard to see your family when your thousands of miles apart with no money. should be a blast. were gonna get some tattoos, go see girl talk w/ the death set at first ave, have to take her to the mall of america...so ill slice my throat ear to ear while im there. god the mall is terrible, take a mall and cluster fuck 7 others together and you have the mall of america. a huuuuge mall with the same stores 20 times. i dont get it. put some variety, you dont need 4 old navy's in one mall.
off to fucking work. since the whole incident ive been working my ass off. its contributing to my exhaustion. economy sucks so we eliminated a position and im basically doing 2 jobs and getting paid for one. its pretty tiring, word on the street is our boss is buying us lunch today....so i guess ill go in. later donkeys.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
wednesday...blech
ok....blog post... what to write what to write. its really hard to come up with what to write. i swear its so much better blogging when im sitting in my office rotting away rather than being home....and rotting away. today was stressful. its like i keep getting shit fucking tossed at me and i cant keep up and im so scared that if i fuck up ill lose my job. im trying my best. truthfully. god damn mother fucking bitch ass economy i fucking hate living in this day and age. the only good thing about it is tivo, blacberrys, ipods, and laptops other than that fuck it,
i have about... shit ....9? days until i go to NC. i swear i cant fucking wait anyfurther im soo fucking tired of shittyappolis. i hate everything about here. i dont know whats stopping me from being like fuck it and going back to nc. oh wait...its the fucking economy. i cant live on a couch somewhere making no money....im too old for that now. time to focus...look ahead and pull my socks up i guess is what some of my friends would tell me. its not that simple i tells ya.
all im doing wiith my life right now is going through the motions. i hate the saying that "right now...just going through the motions",,, so cliche...sounds like something josh hartnett would say in some shitty ass indie teen movie. i think he did say that in a movie..holy shit he totally did i bet anyone a pbr he did. i think it was the one with the aliens that take over the school with what up elijah wood. im sorry if this post bores you because it has no direction im just a lil drunk at the moment. i went to happy hour after work and now me and my friend erez are slamming black labels and watching tales from the crypt/listening to ryan adams/watching libertines vids/smoking/drinking.... ADD at its fuckkkking prime. prime rib. cow boy. im drunk gnnithg internet.
i have about... shit ....9? days until i go to NC. i swear i cant fucking wait anyfurther im soo fucking tired of shittyappolis. i hate everything about here. i dont know whats stopping me from being like fuck it and going back to nc. oh wait...its the fucking economy. i cant live on a couch somewhere making no money....im too old for that now. time to focus...look ahead and pull my socks up i guess is what some of my friends would tell me. its not that simple i tells ya.
all im doing wiith my life right now is going through the motions. i hate the saying that "right now...just going through the motions",,, so cliche...sounds like something josh hartnett would say in some shitty ass indie teen movie. i think he did say that in a movie..holy shit he totally did i bet anyone a pbr he did. i think it was the one with the aliens that take over the school with what up elijah wood. im sorry if this post bores you because it has no direction im just a lil drunk at the moment. i went to happy hour after work and now me and my friend erez are slamming black labels and watching tales from the crypt/listening to ryan adams/watching libertines vids/smoking/drinking.... ADD at its fuckkkking prime. prime rib. cow boy. im drunk gnnithg internet.
Monday, October 6, 2008
another day another week
wtf...today was a good day. i actually had a good day at work. until about 330 when my head decided to blow the fuck up and hurt. i couldnt sleep last night so i decided to drink some so i could just pass out and sleep. so i wasnt paying attention and downed a entire bottle of wine in 15 minutes...ish i know. it didnt stay in me long and i got sick :( it wasnt fun. the morning was a fucking wreck i must say.
i feel like a shit bag sometimes. i went to the walgreens shop across the street from me house. and i bought some ramen, frozen pizza and peanut butter. the girl at checkout was like wow you buy food you usually just buy cigs and sprite. made me feel lame. also yesterday of course the cute girl is working and i only needed toilet paper. how lame did i feel only buying toilet paper...pretty fucking lame. hey cute girl whats up yeah im cool you know i just gotta shit . like wtf. i hated that. bugged me for the rest of the night. if anyone wants to see the worst shitty movie ever go rent 88 minutes. i laughed alot and was like wow at the end. like how fucking bored did i have to be to sit thru that piece of shit.
sorry i know this post blows donkey...im just a lil drunk and my thoughts are scattered about. i just want my vacation which is in 2 weeks. cant wait to look classy and get trashy with my friends in nc. smoke in bars...smash bottles...roll in dirt. its going to be great i tells ya just great. you fucking love it.
im done now. im getting off before i better embarass myself with scrawling writtles of shit that makes no sense. did you understand this last sentence here. cause i didnt. oh the joy of it all.
i feel like a shit bag sometimes. i went to the walgreens shop across the street from me house. and i bought some ramen, frozen pizza and peanut butter. the girl at checkout was like wow you buy food you usually just buy cigs and sprite. made me feel lame. also yesterday of course the cute girl is working and i only needed toilet paper. how lame did i feel only buying toilet paper...pretty fucking lame. hey cute girl whats up yeah im cool you know i just gotta shit . like wtf. i hated that. bugged me for the rest of the night. if anyone wants to see the worst shitty movie ever go rent 88 minutes. i laughed alot and was like wow at the end. like how fucking bored did i have to be to sit thru that piece of shit.
sorry i know this post blows donkey...im just a lil drunk and my thoughts are scattered about. i just want my vacation which is in 2 weeks. cant wait to look classy and get trashy with my friends in nc. smoke in bars...smash bottles...roll in dirt. its going to be great i tells ya just great. you fucking love it.
im done now. im getting off before i better embarass myself with scrawling writtles of shit that makes no sense. did you understand this last sentence here. cause i didnt. oh the joy of it all.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Wasps
first i just want to start off by stating my opinion that i truly dislike wasps. i dont think anyone likes them. well i think some scientists study them, but thats them i fucking hate them. theres a wasp nest outside my living room window. now im seperated by house. how the fuck do they keep getting in my house. ive killed like 3 wasps this past month. just randomly there will be one flying about and i either need to freeze them with pc duster or torch them with aerosol and a bbq lighter. i dont like killing so i wish they would just pester off or something.
this weekend was interesting. i kind of have learned to appreciate being alone and enjoying my own company without feeling like im bored and should be out partying or be hanging with someone. ive always had people around and im kind of getting used to it. its kind of nice really. like tonight for instance... i was listening to some vinyl drinking red wine and reading alice in wonderland. you cant do that when theres other people around. extremely relaxing.
this weekend was pretty cool. i enjoyed it. bought some new books... alice in wonderland and the collected writings of f scott fitzgerald. im excited about those. oh and my dad called me and asked what i was doing for the holidays and i had nothing planned. i was gonna be alone, cold, and miserable on xmas cause i no noone in this city and cant afford to go where my fam is. so i guess it sounded depressing enough since he offered to buy me a plane ticket. bonus round. i want to party. im bored. haha contradicting my self already witht he whole being alone. dont judge.
this weekend was interesting. i kind of have learned to appreciate being alone and enjoying my own company without feeling like im bored and should be out partying or be hanging with someone. ive always had people around and im kind of getting used to it. its kind of nice really. like tonight for instance... i was listening to some vinyl drinking red wine and reading alice in wonderland. you cant do that when theres other people around. extremely relaxing.
this weekend was pretty cool. i enjoyed it. bought some new books... alice in wonderland and the collected writings of f scott fitzgerald. im excited about those. oh and my dad called me and asked what i was doing for the holidays and i had nothing planned. i was gonna be alone, cold, and miserable on xmas cause i no noone in this city and cant afford to go where my fam is. so i guess it sounded depressing enough since he offered to buy me a plane ticket. bonus round. i want to party. im bored. haha contradicting my self already witht he whole being alone. dont judge.
Friday, October 3, 2008
change of plans
soo....another meeting with HR today. basically i can say whatever the fuck i want and nobody can say shit otherwise. as long as no name dropping and i do it from home. so...theres no point in creating a new blog....or making it private. making it easier for you the readers and me the unfortunate prick that had to put up with all this bull snot. i could talk so much shit and no one can say nothing. talking bout freedom behbeh
today... today was a great day. its amazing. like the shittiest thing can happen...mgmt getting a hold of your blog and almost getting fired...to being asked to plan the finance outing. so lets just go ahead and say that i plan the fucking FUNNEST (thats a word?) outings. ok so i wasnt really given a budget so i just planned whatever and it go approved. so im a HUGE Ryan Adams fan....so is my boss. hes playing here dec 10th and i sure as hell didnt want to pay 85 bucks for a ticket...so i turned it into a Finance outing and corporates fucking paying for it Boom! i Rule!...
heres how the "outing" should go...
leave work...go to happy hour at game works...have some drinks play some games..ill fucking rock the shhit out of everyone in air hockey. get good n drunk go to hardrock for dinner and stumble across the street to see Ryan Adams and Oasis at the target center paid by mother fuckin corporate. thanks corporate. you paid for my tattoo and my ryan adams ticket...gotta love the turn around on that right.
my fucking tattoo is itchy and burney as shit so im gonna go dip my leg in lotion. later guys.
today... today was a great day. its amazing. like the shittiest thing can happen...mgmt getting a hold of your blog and almost getting fired...to being asked to plan the finance outing. so lets just go ahead and say that i plan the fucking FUNNEST (thats a word?) outings. ok so i wasnt really given a budget so i just planned whatever and it go approved. so im a HUGE Ryan Adams fan....so is my boss. hes playing here dec 10th and i sure as hell didnt want to pay 85 bucks for a ticket...so i turned it into a Finance outing and corporates fucking paying for it Boom! i Rule!...
heres how the "outing" should go...
leave work...go to happy hour at game works...have some drinks play some games..ill fucking rock the shhit out of everyone in air hockey. get good n drunk go to hardrock for dinner and stumble across the street to see Ryan Adams and Oasis at the target center paid by mother fuckin corporate. thanks corporate. you paid for my tattoo and my ryan adams ticket...gotta love the turn around on that right.
my fucking tattoo is itchy and burney as shit so im gonna go dip my leg in lotion. later guys.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
possible future
due to a suprisingly overwhelming amount of feedback from my early retirement farewell on tuesday im willing to go through the hassle of creating a new blog. this is going to be private so if everyone who called/emailed/texted and commented send me an email to sallythebrown@gmail.com and ill add you to the new blog that im creating now. thanks for everyone who talked me into coming back...its been two days...and ive been fiending like a shit.
sallythebrown@gmail.com
let me know who it is too...this whole incident has left me rather paranoid. haha.
and i assure you rat who reported me...itll be done from home and not work so dont bother trying to sneak ur way in. i went over it with hr and im in the clear this way....sucker.
sallythebrown@gmail.com
let me know who it is too...this whole incident has left me rather paranoid. haha.
and i assure you rat who reported me...itll be done from home and not work so dont bother trying to sneak ur way in. i went over it with hr and im in the clear this way....sucker.
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