yesterdays post

ive been craigslisting/monster.com like a mad man, its very stressful. i feel like im applying for bullshit and its all phishing schemes. i found out today too since i havent worked at BN for a while that im not eligible to transfer DAMN! that was like my job cushion, and has been for the last 3 years. im sure it will work out in the end, i mean it has to right? i just love working at BN, cool people always work there. always a interesting group of people.

my mom gets here on friday, i can barely wait. i have all this shit flying around in my head. its driving me mad, i cant wait to just sit down with her and regurgitate it all to her face to face rather than over the email. im sure shes dreading it. then on saturday my sister gets here, i cant freaking wait to see her. its been the longest since we have last seen each other.

i wish things were easier. like moving and shit, it takes so much out of you, mentally and physically. i just want to sleep its all so exhausting. i really want to write some new shorts but i cant focus for shite. all the stress and depression minneapolis puts on me blocks my brain of all creativity and freetime/amusement if that makes any sense? where will i be when im 64? scary thought! see...there i go again overthinking. i should just stop and eliminate that though cause nothing good will come of it. oh and also marriot said i wasnt qualified for an Admin position...i got promoted out of that fucking position, stupid personality test fucked me in the ass again! hate those things.