I'm going to try and focus and publish a decent post here. this past week i have been doing nothing but partying and my life has become a haze, ive found it hard to think of something to write. Basically i have came to the assumption this past week during my short amount of time here in winston-salem what its all about. Life is not about having a great job with lots of money, having a gorgeous wife with great kids. sounds boring to me to be honest. how does that sound any fun to me. sounds so pre programmed why do i feel the need to go down said path. because thats what i was taught in a corrupt school system established on what a board thinks is appropriate to screw in young kids heads.
you dont need money and love to be happy. there good things i guess. but theres more to it out there than those things, this past few months those are the things i have been stressing about. havent given it two thoughts since i have been out here. no its not because im on vacation and im wearing a whats me worries tshirt. its because im reminded of what its all about. friends and family are what its all about. i can go through my entire life re analyzing my decisions and stressing about the what if's but the time has come to pull my socks up and do what i have been recalculating in my head over and over. tired of staying awake thinking what if this happens, only one way to find out.
ok so im focused, we have established that by now. now to stop rambling. does anyone still read this im not getting feedback i feel like im writing in my journal that no one but me reads. i know the past few posts were fucking shite, im working on fixing that. everything that has happened to me since i have been here has been a total you had to be there story or moment. just imagine the funniest drinking stories you can think of, and stretch it out over the course of a week and thats what has been going on with me. hah ironic its like now that i have interesting things happening i dont know what to write about, how queer.
Today me and Caleb went to the salvation army and i did get some good finds. i got some cherrywood leather shoes and 2 new member only jackets. ones tan and looks and fits great on me, its a makin me happpiii. man im a idiot, last night we were at finnigans its an irish pub dwntwn winston. it was there 2 year anniversary of being in business and they were having this party. it was awesome, live dj and they were giving out shit. i got this sweet ass guiness pint. we all did me chad and caleb. we got so trashed, 3 white guys drunk as shit requestin dr dre and singing it at the top of our lungs. we were drunk and freezing so the best mode of transpo was running your ass off. caleb dropped his pint glass and it smashed, then me and chad were like YEAHH WOOO and smashed our. woke up upset about that this morning, although it is so fun to smash glas when your off your face drunk.
alrighty then, off to the blackhole of craigslist. later everyone.
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I,m (shouldbe) embarrassed to say the other day I read pretty far into your blog and found myself as far as another post where you essentially called your own blog lame. Then I realized I;m 10 times lamer, because I,m actually reading it and have no reason to. Not even the obligation of friendship ( is it horrible to attatch the word obligation to the word friendship? hmmm).
Not really sure why i came back for more except that your diction draws the reader in without being too forced and studied; you know?
no maybe you don,t
i stumbled upon your blog through Seans and just thought you might like to know there,s at least one person in this world who has read over your entries.
Hey Mikey.. I read your blog every time you write something. Infact I've read all your ancient posts as well. Like the way you don't mince words and say it like it is!
Interesting to know you've been doing some deep soul-searching recently and take it from someone who has been there recently.. I think you're approaching this in the right way. It really isn't about having an ideal life, it's about enjoying the one you have.. while making sure you cross off that list of milestones you want to achieve.
All the best.. I'm sure you can do it!
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