wednesday...blech

ok....blog post... what to write what to write. its really hard to come up with what to write. i swear its so much better blogging when im sitting in my office rotting away rather than being home....and rotting away. today was stressful. its like i keep getting shit fucking tossed at me and i cant keep up and im so scared that if i fuck up ill lose my job. im trying my best. truthfully. god damn mother fucking bitch ass economy i fucking hate living in this day and age. the only good thing about it is tivo, blacberrys, ipods, and laptops other than that fuck it,

i have about... shit ....9? days until i go to NC. i swear i cant fucking wait anyfurther im soo fucking tired of shittyappolis. i hate everything about here. i dont know whats stopping me from being like fuck it and going back to nc. oh wait...its the fucking economy. i cant live on a couch somewhere making no money....im too old for that now. time to focus...look ahead and pull my socks up i guess is what some of my friends would tell me. its not that simple i tells ya.

all im doing wiith my life right now is going through the motions. i hate the saying that "right now...just going through the motions",,, so cliche...sounds like something josh hartnett would say in some shitty ass indie teen movie. i think he did say that in a movie..holy shit he totally did i bet anyone a pbr he did. i think it was the one with the aliens that take over the school with what up elijah wood. im sorry if this post bores you because it has no direction im just a lil drunk at the moment. i went to happy hour after work and now me and my friend erez are slamming black labels and watching tales from the crypt/listening to ryan adams/watching libertines vids/smoking/drinking.... ADD at its fuckkkking prime. prime rib. cow boy. im drunk gnnithg internet.